God's Dream is Bigger
I was a single mom. All my relationships failed because I didn’t have God in my life. The pain of breaking up and having to raise my son alone made me angry, bitter and insecure. I did question God..a lot of times. I know there is a God but some people told me He is an angry God because I am a sinner. So I pushed myself away instead of talking to God and address to Him all my issues in life.
Dancing was my escape from everything because it is only in dancing that i can express every emotion I am feeling. In year 2006, I became a part of the Dancesport Philippine Team ( ballroom dancing ) and was being sent to Singapore and Malaysia for international competitions. My dancing sustained my nursing studies and sustained my son. Life was a little better. Before graduating from my nursing degree, my dance partner and I have been chosen as one of the athletes to join the US DANCESPORT competition. We trained really hard for the championship but 4 days after my Visa was granted, I got a very heartbreaking news from the Embassy that I can’t use my visa and join the competition because I am a nursing graduate. All those 9 hours training per day, all those blisters and blood from my feet will mean nothing. The dreams I have for my son and for us suddenly banished in the air. I didn’t understand why God let it happen.
They said maybe he has a different plan for me but I refused to listen. I was hiding myself…threw my dancing shoes and after years of competing, I was there in the dark- I gave up dancing. After 3 years , one afternoon I found myself scanning the bible. It felt like God purposely took me to the scripture in Jeremiah 29:11 for I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not harm you,I have plans to give you a future filled with hope. After reading this I just broke down. I know it wasn’t an accident reading that passage. I know it was God’s plan. My brothers and sisters, after that afternoon, I was saved! I started getting myself involved in a Christian church in the Philippnes and since that time I have never missed a single service. I fell in love with Gods word and every promise He made for me is in the bible! I started writing my faith goals and prayed to God persistently. My morning time is my time alone with God! I soaked myself in His words. Our Pastor said that we serve a supernatural God and so I prayed bold prayers. Like every tiny details I told God about it. 2012, I met someone and got engaged. God gave me someone I never thought of. He gave me a man who loves God, a man who accepted me and my son and loves us so much. Things just started to get better and better.
On 2013 I gave myself to Christ and I was baptized. God means serious business when you seek Him first. Because of God, for the first time in my life I was able to forgive the people who hurt me, I was able to forgive a friend I had misunderstanding with for 5 years, I was able to forgive my parents. Their separation has caused my bitterness inside. I was filled with forgiveness and everything was just restored. 2013 of November, our Visa was approved. We got here last January and I had the water baptism again with my son in this church last March. Truly God has something better for me. Sometimes, when God says no, it really hurts us. But His no is leading us to something better. If I went to the competition, things would be different and I wouldn’t meet my husband now. The dance competition was temporary, God gave me a permanent one and that’s FAMILY! Now I am a full time wife and a mother and my family honors God and will serve Him all the days of our lives.
God is awesome. Matthew 5:5 Gods blessings is taking me places I’ve never dreamed I could go and that’s why we’re here..not for dancing but for my family and serving God. God made me whole and healed me. God fixed me and restored me!